I don't feel the way I've ever felt, i know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried. I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now,
Anyone can find the same white pills.
cause it takes my pain away.

It's a false sense of accomplishment. Every time I quit.
Anyone can see my every flaw. It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.

It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Never mind these are horrid times. I can't let it bother me .